I left the woods before the sun set, but not before I set down my index cards and pen, and simply watched the sunlight move across the lake. I didn't make any real progress on the next stages of my journey, and in so ways I felt more confused than when I had started this quest. This year was different from my previous two vision quests. Not only was this one significantly shorter, but on both of the other ones I felt that God had clearly spoken, giving me focus and direction for the coming year. With this one, I just felt lost.
I had gone into the woods to clear my head and process/sort out the things on my mind. All I really managed to do was get some practice hanging up my hammock in a semi-precarious location, and summarize what I had already known. These weren't bad things, but they really weren't what I had ventured into the woods for. I wanted God to show up like He had in the past, giving me clear insights into my life, speaking to me in a unique way, but all I really got was confusion, having no idea what to do next.
That isn't what I've come to expect from vision quests, but to be fair I hadn't realized I was on my vision quest at that moment. What took place there in my hammock by the lake would continue to unconsciously develop in me over the next several months, until one day in late fall it all started to make sense...
Fight the lion, 1 Peter 5.1-11
TO GOD ALONE BE THE GLORY!
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