Seeing her relationship status change sucked. I blocked her on Facebook so I wouldn't see any of her status updates or pictures, and I got rid the couple things I had written to her and never sent or written for her and never shared, and began to try and move one. Part of me still didn't want to give up, and so I didn't destroy them, just gave them to someone for safe keeping in the event that I ever needed them back to give to her.
I waited and prayed, not wanting to move on, but at the same time knowing that it was over. I wasn't looking for a relationship, I didn't want to be with anyone else, and at the time I was prepared to be single for the rest of my life (I really liked this girl).
Honestly, there isn't a whole lot for me to say on this one, I spent over an hour at my computer last night trying to write this, and that is all I came up with. The aftermath of this wound was me trying to hold on to something I wanted, something I prayed for, while realizing it wasn't what God had in mind. There were people I had met in Michigan who were sad for me, I was sad for me, and a little frustrated with God. This wound would impact me in a lot of way, and writing about it has helped me see areas that still need some work...
Fight the lion, 1 Peter 5.1-11
TO GOD ALONE BE THE GLORY!
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